Well, I have officially moved into my new place in Fort Stockton, Texas. The past four days have been an emotional roller coaster. I have been on every spectrum from incredibly high happiness to the pits of lonely sadness. I miss my home. I miss my friends. It's crazy that my whole entire life, I have been working for this moment of moving on, the moment of being an adult...but why..?
Adult life is really hard. There's an incredible amount of pressure to not screw up, to have a budget and stick to it (that's really hard), and to take care of everything else that happens. So when I moved in, I was on this high happiness right? Then my parents left and I found myself with no working air conditioner, no working stove, a back fence that doesn't latch and a whole bunch of sadness.
I can't count the number of times that I have cried and pleaded with God to please provide me with friends and that I am not making a mistake. I don't know how many tears have flowed and sped down my face because I have felt this overwhelming feeling of sadness.
But great things continue to happen still and I have been able to still produce a smile on my face even though that I have absolutely no friends and the only people I know is one janitor at my school, the principal and my landlord. So although I don't have friends at this moment, I know that God has prepared me to be here. There is some strange reason why I am here right now. I don't know why that is but I am excited and nervous and sad.
Moving is not easy. This is the first time that I have ever moved. This is the first time that I have been farther than 15 minutes from home. Thankfully, this isn't forever. I know that days will be incredibly hard but when I'm in my classroom, when I think about my future kids, when I think about what the Lord has planned for me, it's not so sad anymore. :)
I am excited for this time in life. I would appreciate your prayers and good thoughts/vibes as I am making this new transition in life. #teachingwithKV
