I miss the simplicity of life when I was a kid.
Like, when I would fall down and scrape my leg, my mom would hug me and kiss the boo boo and everything would be okay...
I miss that.
Especially as a 20 year old and my mom can't kiss the boo boo's anymore. (I mean, I guess she could but I don't believe that that actually works unfortunately)
As I sit in a house, babysitting a dog, watching boy meets world and working on Spanish homework, I start thinking about my life. More importantly...the future.
In a few months, my junior year of college will officially be completed. It's crazy to think that I will be a senior in college in a matter of months. I will begin the applying to teaching jobs process. I will begin applying to grad schools. I will begin searching for apartments. I will begin slowly moving my life away from a town I've known for 21 years.
I know God has put a passion in me to work with students and I'm thankful that I know that that is my passion and that God allowed me to experience that passion through something I love: softball. I am blessed to have the opportunity to work for the Kingdom each and every day. I can't help but be a little afraid of what the future might hold though.
I think about how I'm going to afford everything.
I think about the responsibility of eventually owning a dog :)
I think about the lives that will be impacting me.
I think about moving from Bangs, TX, a town I've lived in my entire, to somewhere new and big.
I think about the kids I will be coaching.
And I'm so scared and nervous. My parents will stay here. My mom won't be there to hug me when it's been an awful day. My mom won't be there to take me to the doctor when my shoulder is acting up. I'm going to have to do this all by myself?
I'm always floored by the peace that Christ brings though. Even as I'm sitting here writing about my fears, I am overwhelmed by a steady and strong peace that only Jesus Christ bring.
I am so thankful for that. I am so thankful that I don't have to walk through my whole life by myself. I am thankful that Christ is more than I will ever need. I am thankful I never have to walk in the dark because Jesus has brought so much light.
The thing about trusting God is...His plan is perfect. And I have absolutely nothing to fear.
Here's to the future. *takes a deep breath and takes sip of dr. pepper*
