Dreamland

So life has been interesting lately. Well, my dream life anyway.

I've always found dreams interesting. Not like that I believe that they actually tell you anything about life but they do.

Ok, I may not totally believe that but I sort of do.

Let me give you an example...my freshman year of college, I kept having this dream that I was pregnant. And every night, I kept having dreams that I was pregnant. Not only is that weird but my mom dreamt I was pregnant too. That's completely weird. So I looked up what being pregnant in dreams mean...and it actually means that change is about to happen. Honestly, when I read that, I wanted to just be done. I didn't want change. I don't like change. But what's really weird, change did happen. And once the "change" was over, I had a dream that I had the baby. Weird, right?

So I haven't dreamed about being pregnant since then...until last night. Now I don't know what kind of baby i'm going to birth this time but I am not the least bit excited. I hate change. I don't like it. My dream was that I was telling a good friend of mine that I was pregnant and she was really upset with me. I love this friend so much and she was so disappointed in me.

                   So maybe my dream is about my totally unrealistic fear about disappointing people...

Not only did I have my pregnant dream this week but I also had a nightmare that I was murdered. Not only was a murdered but also kidnapped. GAH.

So, there's a staff member at Howard Payne that I really enjoy talking too and I usually tell her about my life and she was the mastermind. And also, my best friend works for her. And SHE WAS IN ON IN TOO. They kidnapped me from my RA job, threw me in the back of her jeep, and then discussed what they were going to do with my body once they killed me. Then they killed me.

So I am not sure what this means and honestly I was not about to look up what that one meant because it can't mean anything good. So if I die soon, look for Ashley and Francie. ;)

Other than that, life has gotten so busy and crazy.

Currently, I am the co-chair for Spring Sing Committee, PR for SAC, an RA, the Chief Supreme Court Justice and an Intern for my church. And not only that, but I was actually just diagnosed with some neck, back, spine problems that I am going to physical therapy for. Like I have time for all of this going on but hey, life is good. And God is wonderful.

And I'm so stoked for the future. :)

We need more Jennie Finch's

So since my blog is called "Starting Over" -- I thought I would start by saying that there are a lot of things that I would love to start over on. Some I have been given the chance to but others, unfortunately, I will never be able to start over.

For instance, my passion.

My goal from a very young age was to play for the US Olympic softball team. I knew that at four years old, I was going to accomplish that goal.

Yet, here I am.

There's this saying that God has given us all talents that we use to bring Him glory. I completely agree and understand that statement. Unfortunately, I didn't realize this. Even after becoming a Christian, I thought I worked my faith into the game but it was just obvious that I wasn't. I could talk about God all I wanted but to actually give glory to God for something I did...no. I didn't ever do that. So as God does, He sometimes takes things away just to show how powerful He is.

Needless to say, I will never be an Olympic softball player.

But that doesn't mean that some other little girl couldn't. Except, it does. Since 2008, girls all over the world have not been given the opportunity to play Olympic softball because it's been dropped. For the first time since then, softball and baseball are back in the pool at actually become a sport.

Not only is this a huge for me but also for the millions of girls that play softball.

So I am asking you to do something. I am asking you to back softball. I am asking you to become educated. I am asking you to give girls a chance. I am asking you to vote to put softball and baseball back in the Olympics.

If you don't listen to me...listen to a gold medalist...

http://www.usatoday.com/story/sports/olympics/2013/09/02/jennie-finch-why-softball-should-be-in-olympics/2756255/

I don't know about you but I feel we need more Jennie Finch's in the world. We can make that happen.

The big vote happens on Sunday. Praying that girls actually have a chance.